No physical Abuse

These Hands Won't Hurt Colossians 3:19 Husbands, love your wives, and do not be harsh with them. harsh unpleasantly rough Physical Abuse is something serious! It can be dangerous! I wont just touch on men being harsh in a relationship because woman hit on their partners in this day and age. In no way shape or form is it okay to physically hurt your partner woman or man. Abuse is abuse is abuse. Keep your hands to your self !! Choose tender love and care!

Gods taking away your gift because you neglected it

Irresponsible  parents

ir·re·spon·si·ble

(of a person, attitude, or action) not showing a proper sense of responsibility

.Psalm 27:10
10 Though my father and mother forsake me,
    the Lord will receive me.

When you don't take care of the things God blesses you with. Then you are irresponsible. I they become damaged or broken due to your actions. Your irresponsible. I've had many people call me this over the years people who have neglected to do right by me. How dare they have the nerve to point a finger at me when they lacked within their own self I'll be darned if I was to be blaimed for all my pain growing up. I didn't break myself


I'm replaceable

re·place·ment

the action or process of replacing someone or something.

Matthew 10:30

30 And even the very hairs of your head are all numbered.

I always wanted to think of myself as one of a kind.  Because if die then there's no one like me. But lately I've realized its so easy for people to replace me. To walk away and not care. So when I die don't cry replace me with someone else who will be me but since I'm alive n everyone replaces me then I'll make it easy for everyone because I guess I have tons of replacements n tho God says there is no one else like me I guess people can find me on a self and replace with a better me or another kid or another girl friend or another someone...don't ever mourn me...just find someone else I'm replaceable

Gods taking away your gift because you neglected it

Do not neglect the gift that is in you, which was given to you by prophecy with the laying on of the hands of the eldership. I Timothy 4:1

One day I pray that God just take me away. Because I was a gift an I was neglected. People took advantage of their gift. You would never want to leave a child in a place of constant pain. Child services would take it away due to neglect. So I pray I pray God send me home to heaven take me away to be in a better place a place I know I'm loved. You neglected ur gift and so he is taken it away

Today I get a better  home

Luke 23:43 Jesus answered him, “Truly I tell you, today you will be with me in paradise.”

My dream is a happy home. I just want to be in heavenRevelation 21:4
4 ‘He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death’[a] or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.” I just want the pain to go away. I don't want another test I don't want another trial. I been through abuse rape abandonment jail living on the streets prostitution two relationships that ended after a promise of marriage. Having no parents mental trauma suicidal thoughts miscarriages. The list goes on and on how much more how much more do you want Me to suffer

I need protection

You were suppose to protect me

2 samuel 13:14-15

14 But Amnon wouldn’t listen to her, and since he was stronger than she was, he raped her. 15 Then suddenly Amnon’s love turned to hate, and he hated her even more than he had loved her. “Get out of here!” he snarled at her.

protect
to defend or guard from attack, invasion, loss, annoyance, insult, etc.; cover or shield from injury or danger.

Tamar was raped by her own brother so home probably never felt safe for her.its crazy when the ones close to us who are suppose to protect us are the ones CV who end up damaging us. Who do u trust if you cant even trust your own family to protect you. Or the people who claim they love you dont protect you. Instead they put they put you in danger. I need you to protect me instead you caused me pain. You left me damaged vulnerable and alone to pick up the pieces.

Free From Verbal Abuse!

 Breaking Free From Abuse 

Exodus 14:21-28Then Moses stretched out his hand over the sea; and the Lord caused the sea to go back by a strong east wind all that night, and made the sea into dry land, and the waters were divided. 22 So the children of Israel went into the midst of the sea on the dry ground, and the waters were a wall to them on their right hand and on their left. 23 And the Egyptians pursued and went after them into the midst of the sea, all Pharaoh’s horses, his chariots, and his horsemen.

24 Now it came to pass, in the morning watch, that the Lord looked down upon the army of the Egyptians through the pillar of fire and cloud, and He troubled the army of the Egyptians. 25 And He took off[a] their chariot wheels, so that they drove them with difficulty; and the Egyptians said, “Let us flee from the face of Israel, for the Lord fights for them against the Egyptians.”

26 Then the Lord said to Moses, “Stretch out your hand over the sea, that the waters may come back upon the Egyptians, on their chariots, and on their horsemen.” 27 And Moses stretched out his hand over the sea; and when the morning appeared, the sea returned to its full depth, while the Egyptians were fleeing into it. So the Lord overthrew the Egyptians in the midst of the sea. 28 Then the waters returned and covered the chariots, the horsemen, and all the army of Pharaoh that came into the sea after them. Not so much as one of them remained.

Abuse is hard to break out of. You often keep going back. And the abuser doesnt stop abusing some do if the open their eyes but many dont. Putting you down constantly. Not allowing you to exscape your past failures trying to keep control of you. Because of there own weakness of failures. Controling how u can speak to them. Making you feel that everythings your fault. That you must stay on their constant torture. And some say they want to see u happy yet they constantly abuse u. Using you for sex money their own pleasure. You want to enjoy life not live in abuse

Don't go Back to The Abuse !!

Abuse : treat a person with cruelty or violence, especially regularly or repeatedly.

Numbers 14:4 And they said one to another, Let us make a captain, and let us return into Egypt.

It takes courage to break out of abuse. Your in it so long you get comfortable in it. You allow the person to treat you in any kind of way and it becomes your normal. From the constant blaming, from the name calling, using you only in a sexual manner, from making it seem as no one else will love you. Making you feel worthless. From the lies and the cheating to constant mind games. To using everything against you to make you seem as you are this horrible person. Its going to be hard but take it oneday at a time your going to make it out. Keep pushing forward oneday at a time but don't go back.

Verbal Abuse 

Psalm 141:3

3 Set a guard, O Lord, over my mouth;

Keep watch over the door of my lips

Words are powerful they can become toxic. They can break people down. Proverbs 18:21 Death and life are in the power of the tongue,And those who love it will eat its fruit. Verbal abuse is a real thing from constant blaming, name calling,degrading someone. Its very hurtful and hurts someone inwardly. Sometimes we don't even see our actions and how this can hurt and effect someone life. Calling them stupid or retard or B****. Constantly making it seem like everything is their fault. Constantly telling them about everything they do wrong. Over and over and over again. Its a harmful cycle and it can be damaging. 





No More Verbal Abuse! 

Ephesians 4:29 

Let no corrupting talk come out of your mouths, but only such as is good for building up, as fits the occasion, that it may give grace to those who hear.




Verbal abuse doesn't have to carry on it can change. You must change your actions. Change the way you talk. Change the way you constantly blaime people. Change how you degrade them. You must fill those words with better words. Also take responsibility for your own actions.  Its okay not to say something hurtful because once it leaves your mouth you cannot take it back. Hold you tongue when you feel that something is going to come out that will hurt someone. Think before you speak. Ask yourself how would those words make you feel inside if they were to be spoken towards you. We are all accountable for our own actions. So speak life ! 

Withhold Love

                             WithHolding Love!! 

with·hold

1. 1.

   refuse to give (something that is due to or is desired by another).

Ephesians 5:25

 Husbands, love your wives, even as Christ also loved the church, and gave himself for it;

Would you consider withholding love as neglect? It is neglect. Love is to be given God gave his son Jesus because he loves the world. He never withheld his son from the world because he didn't want to neglect from his love. Jesus gave his life as a sacrifice to the world. When you have something like love you want to share it. Emotional, IIf with your spouse Sexual, Spirituality Love is something to be shared! So If you are withholding your love stop and share your love!!! 

                                            Quenched Love  

Song of Solomon 8:7

 Many waters cannot quench love, neither can the floods drown it: if a man would give all the substance of his house for love, it would utterly be contemned.

quench

 

1.

 satisfy(thirst, desires, passion, etc.)

When something is quenched it is put out. Like a candle with no flame. Constantly trying to hold your love from someone. To finally be able to love once you have not loved. Its like being thirsty and finally getting that drink of water. Your thirst will finally be quenched. To finally receive the love you have been waiting for becomes so fulfilling to you. BEcause you are no longer longing no longer yearning but you become satisfied!  

No Longer Thirsty!! 

John 4:6-14

6 Now Jacob's well was there. Jesus therefore, being wearied with his journey, sat thus on the well: and it was about the sixth hour.

7 There cometh a woman of Samaria to draw water: Jesus saith unto her, Give me to drink.

8 (For his disciples were gone away unto the city to buy meat.)

9 Then saith the woman of Samaria unto him, How is it that thou, being a Jew, askest drink of me, which am a woman of Samaria? for the Jews have no dealings with the Samaritans.

10 Jesus answered and said unto her, If thou knewest the gift of God, and who it is that saith to thee, Give me to drink; thou wouldest have asked of him, and he would have given thee living water.

11 The woman saith unto him, Sir, thou hast nothing to draw with, and the well is deep: from whence then hast thou that living water?

12 Art thou greater than our father Jacob, which gave us the well, and drank thereof himself, and his children, and his cattle?

13 Jesus answered and said unto her, Whosoever drinketh of this water shall thirst again:

14 But whosoever drinketh of the water that I shall give him shall never thirst; but the water that I shall give him shall be in him a well of water springing up into everlasting life.

On this day the woman at the well came to get some water she was known to be a thirsty woman. Yet on this day she went to the well and JEsus was going to cure her thirst. No longer would she be lacking the love that she needed because she would never thirst again. On the day she would be receiving the love she has always wanted! She was no longer thirsty, she was loved and satisfied!! 

                                                   Fulfilling Her Desires 

1 Kings 10: 13 And king Solomon gave unto the queen of Sheba all her desire, whatsoever she asked, beside that which Solomon gave her of his royal bounty. So she turned and went to her own country, she and her servants.

ful·fill

1. 1.

   bring to completion or reality; achieve or realize (something desired, promised, or predicted). Satisfy! 

 The king fulfilled all of her desires. The bible says Psalm 37:4 Delight thyself also in the Lord: and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart. Meaning he knows the desires of your heart he is your love and he is not going to withhold his love from you he is going to give you what he knows your heart desires are!He will leave you satisfied!!! 

                                    Mental Abuse! 

mental abuse

1. Psychological abuse, also referred to as emotional abuse or mental abuse, is a form of abuse characterized by a person subjecting or exposing another to behavior that may result in psychological trauma, including anxiety, chronic depression, or post-traumatic stress disorder

John 8:32 

And you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.”

I just want to be free. I just want to know the truth. For years I sat there being told most of everything I did was wrong. No one ever told me that they made mistakes to they took it as if I was the only one wrong in the situation. A child born into chaos and so I acted out. I have suffered through physical, and mental abuse.  Never knowing since it hit so young that it wasnt my fault I was brought into the life I was. Growing up I suffered through eating disorders. It  was rare to told I was beautiful. I could ask how do I look and never get an answer so id say i look good but then be told why do I answer my own question. It was because I was waiting on an answer id never get. That I was beautiful! I am Beautiful. In the last year I spent locked in my room as God tried to restore my family. I was told hey way dont you ever come out but the second i did come out to talk or speak I was asked why are you out here or the t.v would be turned up Loud on me so I couldnt talk. Or id eat at work because if i ate the cheese its be a big deal but if id ask to eat the cheese why do you do that? Well because everything I do is an issue wither right or wrong. In the end id always be wrong or no one would be pleased.  Going out to dinner with friends was TOLD no you can't do that but I am 23. Followed by the bible says obey your mother and father. Im going to eat not smoke a blunt and get drunk. Yes i left college but i never relapsed or went back I started my ministry and worked and kept helping people but most importantly I got my healing.I have kept growing and I will never go back to who I use to be. I have been torn down by men told I was loved when in all reality they just wanted me for sex! Don't tell me you love me when you dont. Tell me the truth! Don't drive me crazy dont make me chase after a love ive been fighting for my whole life. Anyone can mentally abuse you. I was made to believe i am not hearing from God and that I was sick and needed people to depend on that I wasnt trying to change. Well that is a LIE! AND A REFUSE TO BELIEVE NOTHING BUT THE TRUTH! 

BREAKING OUT OF Abuse and Trauma! 

trau·ma

1.  deeply distressing or disturbing experience.

John 4:7-9 There cometh a woman of Samaria to draw water: Jesus saith unto her, Give me to drink.

8 (For his disciples were gone away unto the city to buy meat.)

9 Then saith the woman of Samaria unto him, How is it that thou, being a Jew, askest drink of me, which am a woman of Samaria? for the Jews have no dealings with the Samaritans.

I have alot of trauma! I have flash backs that are horrible. I find myself flashing back and talking outloud to myself about the situation. Its like I get lost in my own mind. 4 years ago i was so hurt by my family and men that I was so bitter so broken and full of trauma. I remember when I meet this friend of mine. They called me beautiful everyday or gorgeous! Man it was like a foreign language that I yearned to hear. I dont have to call myself beautiful to feel good but you see what I am trying to hard to fight through something no one has ever made me feel I was. I AM BEAUTIFUL! I felt worth it for first time, i felt loved and i felt confused. Just like this woman at the well when she met Jesus. " How is it that thou, being a Jew, askest drink of me, which am a woman of Samaria? for the Jews have no dealings with the Samaritans.  You know this woman probably was confused because this is the first time someone had done something different outside of what she was use to. You know people like me who lived like I have its hard to get out of thinking you deserve better when others around you don't believe you deserve better than what you have. This woman came to a well when no one was around they didnt want anything to do with her. Yet Jesus did because he loved her! He was going to make sure the pattern of what everyone else thought of her break lose. So he met her at a well and talked to her despite everyone else! He was going to set her free with the Truth! She went to the well thristy and left without being thirsty anymore. Because she now had he truth! And when you have the truth you don't need anything else but the truth. 

John 4:28-29 The woman then left her waterpot, and went her way into the city, and saith to the men,

29 Come, see a man, which told me all things that ever I did: is not this the Christ?

I am Not Just Sex!!!

1 Corinthians 6:19-20
What? know ye not that your body is the temple of the Holy Ghost which is in you, which ye have of God, and ye are not your own?20 For ye are bought with a price: therefore glorify God in your body, and in your spirit, which are God's.

For years I believed. That I was only good enough to be loved in the bed. In college I would not invite men to my dorm only because I didnt want to do something I would regret later. YES I AM HUMAN! Coming out of prostitution and constantly giving my body away to men. Its sad when you have to promise God if he gives you a husband who loves you that you will give him your first child like hannah did because you think your incapable of being loved! So the Lord has been teaching me that I am worth more than to be loved in a bed room. Yes sex is good for marriage but I am more than that I deserve a to be a wife, and have a healthy relationship, and he believes I can be loved! See somewhere in me it was in bedded in me I was just sex!That is mental. no 13 year old girl just goes around sleeping around with tons of men for no reason believing she cant be loved. Who at 13 says sex is just sex on to the next. I thought I had no worth! No value!Men it was all a game because at the end of the day I IN MY MIND WOULD NEVER BE LOVED. WHO WALKS AROUND THINKING THEY ARE UNLOVABLE? The TRUTH THAT IS NOT MENTAL ABUSE SAYS THAT EVEN AFTER MY PROSTITUTION DAYS AND GIVING MY BODY AWAY THAT JESUS STILL LOVED ME AND DIED FOR MY SINS AND I AM NOT JUST SEX! I AM JASMINE I WAS BOUGHT WITH A PRICE AND SOMEONE LOVES ME!

What if? 

what if ——?

what would result if ——

2 Corinthians 5:17 
Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come.

You know the truth will always remain! It will never be not the truth if it doesnt remain. I never stayed who I was because that was never suppose to be who God created me to be the truth is this is me!! I am MORE THAN RUBIES! I am loved. See everything that was once told to me that I would never's faded because it was a lie! Yet Gods truth remained and so the old passed away and the new came. The truth came JASMINE! THIS IS JASMINE. A GIRL WHO IS CONFIDENT AND LOVES HERSELF AND OTHERS. No I am not prefect but I amwho God says I am. So what If you went from being something that people have in bedded into that you would never be to being something God said you will be! What if you went from thinking you will never be loved to being loved, never being a mother to being a mother, what if you went from never getting your degree to getting it, or never being stable to stable, or never getting healed but healed, what if you had the chance to become new what they thought you would never do? It is possible! You just have to stop believing what they once mentally told you you couldnt do and start believing what God said.Matthew 19:26
But Jesus beheld them, and said unto them, With men this is impossible; but with God all things are possible.

Are You a Trouble Maker? 

mis·chief  

Playfulness that is intended to tease, mock, or create trouble. Nehemiah 6:1-4

1 Now it came to pass when Sanballat, and Tobiah, and Geshem the Arabian, and the rest of our enemies, heard that I had builded the wall, and that there was no breach left therein; (though at that time I had not set up the doors upon the gates;)

² That Sanballat and Geshem sent unto me, saying, Come, let us meet together in some one of the villages in the plain of Ono. But they thought to do me mischief.

³ And I sent messengers unto them, saying, I am doing a great work, so that I cannot come down: why should the work cease, whilst I leave it, and come down to you?

⁴ Yet they sent unto me four times after this sort; and I answered them after the same manner.

Nehemiah was doing a good work doing the task in which it was that God had pressed against his heart.  Yet their will always come a time where when ever your doing very good at what it is your doing that people don't like it so they decided to start problems. People would rather see you worst off then them. They hate when what God has for you starts to come together especially when they expected it to fail. You wonder why is it that people rarely like seeing other's doing good for themselves? Yet Nehemiah reply back to their trouble making was only I am doing a great work so why should I stop? If you really look at it it's like saying why should I come down to your level to play your games when things are going good for me. Really think about it if someone is causing issues in your life when things are going good for you why should you have to go down to their level and stop what your doing? It's not like what your doing is not coming together for a better cause! Nehemiah decided that he would keep doing his work! Yet the enemy decided he would keep coming after Nehemiah trying to start trouble. Think about Job! Job was a good man he had so much going for him when he was tested by the enemy. The enemy did everything to get Job to stop serving God. Yet Job even after losing everything was still going to serve God!

^{Job 1:21} And said, Naked came I out of my mother's womb, and naked shall I return thither: the Lord gave, and the Lord hath taken away; blessed be the name of the Lord.

He Say, She Say

ru·mor  

/ˈro͞omər/

Noun A currently circulating story or report of uncertain or doubtful truth:

Nehemiah 6:5-8

⁵ Then sent Sanballat his servant unto me in like manner the fifth time with an open letter in his hand;

⁶ Wherein was written, It is reported among the heathen, and Gashmu saith it, that thou and the Jews think to rebel: for which cause thou buildest the wall, that thou mayest be their king, according to these words.

⁷ And thou hast also appointed prophets to preach of thee at Jerusalem, saying, There is a king in Judah: and now shall it be reported to the king according to these words. Come now therefore, and let us take counsel together.

⁸ Then I sent unto him, saying, There are no such things done as thou sayest, but thou feignest them out of thine own heart.

If people can't find nothing on you often they will make up something to find out about you. Why spread rumors about things that are not even true? Sanballat sent a report saying things in which were not true about Nehemiah and his work in which was being done. Yet Nehemiah reply was that his accusations were false about what it was that he was saying about him.  It's a great feeling to know within yourself your doing the right thing that when people make up stories about you because they are looking for some type of fault that you can just reply saying that what they have to say about you is false! To be confidant about it! Say what you please but what your saying has no truth in it! Alot of the time the things in which people say can try to get you from doing the task in which God wants you to accomplish. Job was getting tried by God but even Job wouldn't listen to God when he lost everything he was going to keep serving even when others think you should stop keep doing what God has called you to do. 

Job 2:9-10

⁹ Then said his wife unto him, Dost thou still retain thine integrity? curse God, and die.

¹⁰ But he said unto her, Thou speakest as one of the foolish women speaketh. What? shall we receive good at the hand of God, and shall we not receive evil? In all this did not Job sin with his lips.

You Made it Despite of What Everyone Else Said You Trusted God In Faith!

^{Nehemiah 6:15}

 So the wall was finished in the twenty and fifth day of the month Elul, in fifty and two days.

Nehemiah finished the task it was that God said and in record time because God was with him! We think about Job, He lost everything but in the end God gave him everything back even better than before! So what Gods task may seem strange to everyone else no matter what trust. Gods test for Job was for him to be faithful and keep serving God! Noah's test of faith was to build and ark! The three Hebrew boys was to not bow down to King Nebuchadnezzar!
  Nehemiah to build a wall! Whatever your task is in the end it will be worth it. God does not lay things on our hearts to do for a waste. Ive watched as God has started to restore my family after he told me to "build an Ark " which was leave college in my junior year a crazy step of faith but my family is being restored more and more each day and I love it! I wouldn't have it any other way! Despite of what anyone said I seen it all come together right before my eyes just the way God said! Noah's family got saved from a flood,  The hebrew boys didn't get burned in the fire, Nehemiah finished his wall!Job saw a better latter day after everything he went through God restored everything back! That's why it is key to walk by faith and not by sight! It is best to believe God despite of what things look like or others may say!

^{Job 42:12-13} 

¹² So the Lord blessed the latter end of Job more than his beginning: for he had fourteen thousand sheep, and six thousand camels, and a thousand yoke of oxen, and a thousand she asses.

¹³ He had also seven sons and three daughters.

I take Back What I said!

^{Nehemiah 6:16}

 And it came to pass, that when all our enemies heard thereof, and all the heathen that were about us saw these things, they were much cast down in their own eyes: for they perceived that this work was wrought of our God.

In the end no one will really have much to say when they see that God was behind what was to be accomplished! The enemies were cast down in their own eyes because they thought that Nehemiah was the one who was behind the work being done but it was God. When God sets out for a task to be finished it will be finished. The floods came in Noah's day and once they came No one had much to say because they were all drowning because it flooded. Jesus is coming back one day and you may laugh mock and make jokes now but one day we will all have to stand before God on judgement day! On that day everyone's lips will be moving confessing Jesus Christ is Lord!

Philippians 2:10-11

¹⁰ That at the name of Jesus every knee should bow, of things in heaven, and things in earth, and things under the earth;

¹¹ And that every tongue should confess that Jesus Christ is Lord, to the glory of God the Father.