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Abuse is one of those issues that is learned and passed on. I was a victim but became the abuser. Manipulation comes with this the abuser will make the other person feel worthless then who they are because they themselves have low self esteem. So they keep going down this horrible cycle to whoever will feed into their lack of. I know Ive been the abuser It was learned! I never wanted to be the abuser. I never understood it was abuse because to me that was love to me. Abuse, misuse, sexual anything. That was my definition of love. Until I woke up after abusing someone for a year! Yikes what did I do. Yet I vowed never to abuse anyone again until the day God told me who it was I could marry. I was so afraid to ever hurt anyone like I had before and then it happened I was getting kicked out and that triggered something in me that brought me back to a time in my life were everyone use to kick me out and it happened! Fight or flight.! I regret that day so bad. Never realized how broken I was until the other day. I've been stuck. I didn't think I was abusive anymore yet I have been not intentionally but because ive been broken. Not understanding on how to fix this issue. All I had to do is learn to really love myself. Not being able to see that I had low self steem. Abuse is belitting of someone else because within you something is wrong. I never really liked myself because I never thought anyone liked me. Until I learned that people like me, that im beautiful, that I can be loved, and that I only have to be myself. That's great news because I dont have to be stuck anymore! Because I believe! That I am better and bigger than Abuse! Since i found this new love for myself Its bringing a new found love for others. I thought I had to trick people into liking me because I didn't understand why people liked me! Yet now I know! IM A GREAT PERSON THE DAMAGE JUST CAME TO YOUNG FOR ME TO EVER GET A CHANCE TO UNDERSTAND THAT! BUT IM FREE NOW! FREE TO LIVE!
The children of Israel got stuck in the wilderness for 40( Number 13) years because they couldnt see themselves past a certain place in their life. They were in bondage. If you decide you want to stay stuck in certain places in your life you will never grow. You will keep wondering, going to abuse the next person, or go to the next abusive relationship to the next. Unless you think of yourself better than you have been! The children of Israels promise was the promise land not the wilderness don't choose to just look into the promise land but live there!Be free but first you have to believe. Disbelief will get you stuck and you will never move forward! I had to believe that I was capable of being loved , capable of being liked for me, capable of people staying, capable of overcoming this place in my life. I am no longer stuck in the wilderness but I have overcame abuse and being Abusive! No more being stuck, no more going into abusive relationships, no more no more being afraid to love, or be in a relationship. I have OVERCOME! ASK YOURSELF WHY ARE YOU STUCK IN YOUR CYCLE OF ABUSE? WHAT IS KEEPING YOU THERE? HOW CAN GOD HELP YOU OVERCOME? IT'S TIME TO LIVE ON THE OTHERSIDE OF THE JORDAN INSTEAD OF GOING IN CIRCLES IN THE WILDERNESS!
PREPARING TO CROSS!
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Joshua and Caleb were able to cross over the Jordan because they believed they could overcome the wilderness in their life! They believed they no longer had to stay stuck in the same place yet they could move. I bet as everyone died off in the wilderness they were taking all their scars and wound from their past and overcoming and healing! They probably kept repeating to themselves "We are well able to overcome this". They refused to stay stuck in Egypt ( Bondage) and Refused to stay Stuck in the Wilderness(A place of nothingness just a place of repeating a cycle). They wanted to cross the Jordan They wanted to OVERCOME. God told Joshua as he was going to cross the Jordan
Joshua 1:9 Have not I commanded thee? Be strong and of a good courage; be not afraid, neither be thou dismayed: for the Lordthy God is with thee whithersoever thou goest.
It can be hard to cross over into a new life after you have been stuck in the same place for so long! They left out of Egypt, Wondered in the wilderness, and NOW THEY WERE FINALLY FREE! FREE TO HAVE GODS PROMISES! It feels good when you can say you have overcome! That you are no longer stuck in the same harmful cycle! Joshua told the People to prepare themselves provision for they would cross in three days to possess then land!
Joshua 1:11
Pass through the host, and command the people, saying, Prepare you victuals; for within three days ye shall pass over this Jordan, to go in to possess the land, which the Lord your God giveth you to possess it.
This is big because being stuck in a cycle hinders you from moving forward! I remember when I first got off drugs! I was in a repeated harmful abusive cycle yet when I got off the cycle I got up off my butt got on my feet and crossed over and went to college! I could do it! I crossed my Jordan!
So get Ready to Pack your Bags to the Next Place God is Moving you to!
Confidence to Win This Fight
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24 And Jacob was left alone; and there wrestled a man with him until the breaking of the day.
25 And when he saw that he prevailed not against him, he touched the hollow of his thigh; and the hollow of Jacob's thigh was out of joint, as he wrestled with him.
26 And he said, Let me go, for the day breaketh. And he said, I will not let thee go, except thou bless me.
27 And he said unto him, What is thy name? And he said, Jacob.
28 And he said, Thy name shall be called no more Jacob, but Israel: for as a prince hast thou power with God and with men, and hast prevailed.
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