mental abuse
- Psychological abuse, also referred to as emotional abuse or mental abuse, is a form of abuse characterized by a person subjecting or exposing another to behavior that may result in psychological trauma, including anxiety, chronic depression, or post-traumatic stress disorder
John 8:32
And you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.”
I just want to be free. I just want to know the truth. For years I sat there being told most of everything I did was wrong. No one ever told me that they made mistakes to they took it as if I was the only one wrong in the situation. A child born into chaos and so I acted out. I have suffered through physical, and mental abuse. Never knowing since it hit so young that it wasnt my fault I was brought into the life I was. Growing up I suffered through eating disorders. It was rare to told I was beautiful. I could ask how do I look and never get an answer so id say i look good but then be told why do I answer my own question. It was because I was waiting on an answer id never get. That I was beautiful! I am Beautiful. In the last year I spent locked in my room as God tried to restore my family. I was told hey way dont you ever come out but the second i did come out to talk or speak I was asked why are you out here or the t.v would be turned up Loud on me so I couldnt talk. Or id eat at work because if i ate the cheese its be a big deal but if id ask to eat the cheese why do you do that? Well because everything I do is an issue wither right or wrong. In the end id always be wrong or no one would be pleased. Going out to dinner with friends was TOLD no you can't do that but I am 23. Followed by the bible says obey your mother and father. Im going to eat not smoke a blunt and get drunk. Yes i left college but i never relapsed or went back I started my ministry and worked and kept helping people but most importantly I got my healing.I have kept growing and I will never go back to who I use to be. I have been torn down by men told I was loved when in all reality they just wanted me for sex! Don't tell me you love me when you dont. Tell me the truth! Don't drive me crazy dont make me chase after a love ive been fighting for my whole life. Anyone can mentally abuse you. I was made to believe i am not hearing from God and that I was sick and needed people to depend on that I wasnt trying to change. Well that is a LIE! AND A REFUSE TO BELIEVE NOTHING BUT THE TRUTH!
BREAKING OUT OF Abuse and Trauma!
trau·ma
- deeply distressing or disturbing experience.
John 4:7-9 There cometh a woman of Samaria to draw water: Jesus saith unto her, Give me to drink.
8 (For his disciples were gone away unto the city to buy meat.)
9 Then saith the woman of Samaria unto him, How is it that thou, being a Jew, askest drink of me, which am a woman of Samaria? for the Jews have no dealings with the Samaritans.
I have alot of trauma! I have flash backs that are horrible. I find myself flashing back and talking outloud to myself about the situation. Its like I get lost in my own mind. 4 years ago i was so hurt by my family and men that I was so bitter so broken and full of trauma. I remember when I meet this friend of mine. They called me beautiful everyday or gorgeous! Man it was like a foreign language that I yearned to hear. I dont have to call myself beautiful to feel good but you see what I am trying to hard to fight through something no one has ever made me feel I was. I AM BEAUTIFUL! I felt worth it for first time, i felt loved and i felt confused. Just like this woman at the well when she met Jesus. " How is it that thou, being a Jew, askest drink of me, which am a woman of Samaria? for the Jews have no dealings with the Samaritans. You know this woman probably was confused because this is the first time someone had done something different outside of what she was use to. You know people like me who lived like I have its hard to get out of thinking you deserve better when others around you don't believe you deserve better than what you have. This woman came to a well when no one was around they didnt want anything to do with her. Yet Jesus did because he loved her! He was going to make sure the pattern of what everyone else thought of her break lose. So he met her at a well and talked to her despite everyone else! He was going to set her free with the Truth! She went to the well thristy and left without being thirsty anymore. Because she now had he truth! And when you have the truth you don't need anything else but the truth.
John 4:28-29 The woman then left her waterpot, and went her way into the city, and saith to the men,
29 Come, see a man, which told me all things that ever I did: is not this the Christ?
I am Not Just Sex!!!
1 Corinthians 6:19-20
What? know ye not that your body is the temple of the Holy Ghost which is in you, which ye have of God, and ye are not your own?20 For ye are bought with a price: therefore glorify God in your body, and in your spirit, which are God's.
For years I believed. That I was only good enough to be loved in the bed. In college I would not invite men to my dorm only because I didnt want to do something I would regret later. YES I AM HUMAN! Coming out of prostitution and constantly giving my body away to men. Its sad when you have to promise God if he gives you a husband who loves you that you will give him your first child like hannah did because you think your incapable of being loved! So the Lord has been teaching me that I am worth more than to be loved in a bed room. Yes sex is good for marriage but I am more than that I deserve a to be a wife, and have a healthy relationship, and he believes I can be loved! See somewhere in me it was in bedded in me I was just sex!That is mental. no 13 year old girl just goes around sleeping around with tons of men for no reason believing she cant be loved. Who at 13 says sex is just sex on to the next. I thought I had no worth! No value!Men it was all a game because at the end of the day I IN MY MIND WOULD NEVER BE LOVED. WHO WALKS AROUND THINKING THEY ARE UNLOVABLE? The TRUTH THAT IS NOT MENTAL ABUSE SAYS THAT EVEN AFTER MY PROSTITUTION DAYS AND GIVING MY BODY AWAY THAT JESUS STILL LOVED ME AND DIED FOR MY SINS AND I AM NOT JUST SEX! I AM JASMINE I WAS BOUGHT WITH A PRICE AND SOMEONE LOVES ME!
1 Corinthians 6:19-20
What? know ye not that your body is the temple of the Holy Ghost which is in you, which ye have of God, and ye are not your own?20 For ye are bought with a price: therefore glorify God in your body, and in your spirit, which are God's.
For years I believed. That I was only good enough to be loved in the bed. In college I would not invite men to my dorm only because I didnt want to do something I would regret later. YES I AM HUMAN! Coming out of prostitution and constantly giving my body away to men. Its sad when you have to promise God if he gives you a husband who loves you that you will give him your first child like hannah did because you think your incapable of being loved! So the Lord has been teaching me that I am worth more than to be loved in a bed room. Yes sex is good for marriage but I am more than that I deserve a to be a wife, and have a healthy relationship, and he believes I can be loved! See somewhere in me it was in bedded in me I was just sex!That is mental. no 13 year old girl just goes around sleeping around with tons of men for no reason believing she cant be loved. Who at 13 says sex is just sex on to the next. I thought I had no worth! No value!Men it was all a game because at the end of the day I IN MY MIND WOULD NEVER BE LOVED. WHO WALKS AROUND THINKING THEY ARE UNLOVABLE? The TRUTH THAT IS NOT MENTAL ABUSE SAYS THAT EVEN AFTER MY PROSTITUTION DAYS AND GIVING MY BODY AWAY THAT JESUS STILL LOVED ME AND DIED FOR MY SINS AND I AM NOT JUST SEX! I AM JASMINE I WAS BOUGHT WITH A PRICE AND SOMEONE LOVES ME!
What if?
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what would result if ——
2 Corinthians 5:17
Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come.
You know the truth will always remain! It will never be not the truth if it doesnt remain. I never stayed who I was because that was never suppose to be who God created me to be the truth is this is me!! I am MORE THAN RUBIES! I am loved. See everything that was once told to me that I would never's faded because it was a lie! Yet Gods truth remained and so the old passed away and the new came. The truth came JASMINE! THIS IS JASMINE. A GIRL WHO IS CONFIDENT AND LOVES HERSELF AND OTHERS. No I am not prefect but I amwho God says I am. So what If you went from being something that people have in bedded into that you would never be to being something God said you will be! What if you went from thinking you will never be loved to being loved, never being a mother to being a mother, what if you went from never getting your degree to getting it, or never being stable to stable, or never getting healed but healed, what if you had the chance to become new what they thought you would never do? It is possible! You just have to stop believing what they once mentally told you you couldnt do and start believing what God said.Matthew 19:26
But Jesus beheld them, and said unto them, With men this is impossible; but with God all things are possible.
