Wednesday, November 19, 2014

Free From Verbal Abuse!

 Breaking Free From Abuse 

Exodus 14:21-28Then Moses stretched out his hand over the sea; and the Lord caused the sea to go back by a strong east wind all that night, and made the sea into dry land, and the waters were divided. 22 So the children of Israel went into the midst of the sea on the dry ground, and the waters were a wall to them on their right hand and on their left. 23 And the Egyptians pursued and went after them into the midst of the sea, all Pharaoh’s horses, his chariots, and his horsemen.
24 Now it came to pass, in the morning watch, that the Lord looked down upon the army of the Egyptians through the pillar of fire and cloud, and He troubled the army of the Egyptians. 25 And He took off[a] their chariot wheels, so that they drove them with difficulty; and the Egyptians said, “Let us flee from the face of Israel, for the Lord fights for them against the Egyptians.”
26 Then the Lord said to Moses, “Stretch out your hand over the sea, that the waters may come back upon the Egyptians, on their chariots, and on their horsemen.” 27 And Moses stretched out his hand over the sea; and when the morning appeared, the sea returned to its full depth, while the Egyptians were fleeing into it. So the Lord overthrew the Egyptians in the midst of the sea. 28 Then the waters returned and covered the chariots, the horsemen, and all the army of Pharaoh that came into the sea after them. Not so much as one of them remained.
Abuse is hard to break out of. You often keep going back. And the abuser doesnt stop abusing some do if the open their eyes but many dont. Putting you down constantly. Not allowing you to exscape your past failures trying to keep control of you. Because of there own weakness of failures. Controling how u can speak to them. Making you feel that everythings your fault. That you must stay on their constant torture. And some say they want to see u happy yet they constantly abuse u. Using you for sex money their own pleasure. You want to enjoy life not live in abuse


Don't go Back to The Abuse !!
Abuse : treat a person with cruelty or violence, especially regularly or repeatedly.
Numbers 14:4 And they said one to another, Let us make a captain, and let us return into Egypt.
It takes courage to break out of abuse. Your in it so long you get comfortable in it. You allow the person to treat you in any kind of way and it becomes your normal. From the constant blaming, from the name calling, using you only in a sexual manner, from making it seem as no one else will love you. Making you feel worthless. From the lies and the cheating to constant mind games. To using everything against you to make you seem as you are this horrible person. Its going to be hard but take it oneday at a time your going to make it out. Keep pushing forward oneday at a time but don't go back.


Verbal Abuse 

Psalm 141:3
3 Set a guard, O Lord, over my mouth;
Keep watch over the door of my lips

Words are powerful they can become toxic. They can break people down. Proverbs 18:21 Death and life are in the power of the tongue,And those who love it will eat its fruit. Verbal abuse is a real thing from constant blaming, name calling,degrading someone. Its very hurtful and hurts someone inwardly. Sometimes we don't even see our actions and how this can hurt and effect someone life. Calling them stupid or retard or B****. Constantly making it seem like everything is their fault. Constantly telling them about everything they do wrong. Over and over and over again. Its a harmful cycle and it can be damaging. 





No More Verbal Abuse! 

Ephesians 4:29 

Let no corrupting talk come out of your mouths, but only such as is good for building up, as fits the occasion, that it may give grace to those who hear.




Verbal abuse doesn't have to carry on it can change. You must change your actions. Change the way you talk. Change the way you constantly blaime people. Change how you degrade them. You must fill those words with better words. Also take responsibility for your own actions.  Its okay not to say something hurtful because once it leaves your mouth you cannot take it back. Hold you tongue when you feel that something is going to come out that will hurt someone. Think before you speak. Ask yourself how would those words make you feel inside if they were to be spoken towards you. We are all accountable for our own actions. So speak life ! 





Thursday, April 17, 2014

Withhold Love

                             WithHolding Love!! 

with·hold
  1. 1.
    refuse to give (something that is due to or is desired by another).



Ephesians 5:25

 Husbands, love your wives, even as Christ also loved the church, and gave himself for it;


Would you consider withholding love as neglect? It is neglect. Love is to be given God gave his son Jesus because he loves the world. He never withheld his son from the world because he didn't want to neglect from his love. Jesus gave his life as a sacrifice to the world. When you have something like love you want to share it. Emotional, IIf with your spouse Sexual, Spirituality Love is something to be shared! So If you are withholding your love stop and share your love!!! 


                                            Quenched Love  

Song of Solomon 8:7

 Many waters cannot quench love, neither can the floods drown it: if a man would give all the substance of his house for love, it would utterly be contemned.


quench

 
1.
 satisfy(thirst, desires, passion, etc.)


When something is quenched it is put out. Like a candle with no flame. Constantly trying to hold your love from someone. To finally be able to love once you have not loved. Its like being thirsty and finally getting that drink of water. Your thirst will finally be quenched. To finally receive the love you have been waiting for becomes so fulfilling to you. BEcause you are no longer longing no longer yearning but you become satisfied!  







No Longer Thirsty!! 


John 4:6-14

Now Jacob's well was there. Jesus therefore, being wearied with his journey, sat thus on the well: and it was about the sixth hour.
There cometh a woman of Samaria to draw water: Jesus saith unto her, Give me to drink.
(For his disciples were gone away unto the city to buy meat.)
Then saith the woman of Samaria unto him, How is it that thou, being a Jew, askest drink of me, which am a woman of Samaria? for the Jews have no dealings with the Samaritans.
10 Jesus answered and said unto her, If thou knewest the gift of God, and who it is that saith to thee, Give me to drink; thou wouldest have asked of him, and he would have given thee living water.
11 The woman saith unto him, Sir, thou hast nothing to draw with, and the well is deep: from whence then hast thou that living water?
12 Art thou greater than our father Jacob, which gave us the well, and drank thereof himself, and his children, and his cattle?
13 Jesus answered and said unto her, Whosoever drinketh of this water shall thirst again:
14 But whosoever drinketh of the water that I shall give him shall never thirst; but the water that I shall give him shall be in him a well of water springing up into everlasting life.


On this day the woman at the well came to get some water she was known to be a thirsty woman. Yet on this day she went to the well and JEsus was going to cure her thirst. No longer would she be lacking the love that she needed because she would never thirst again. On the day she would be receiving the love she has always wanted! She was no longer thirsty, she was loved and satisfied!! 



                                                   Fulfilling Her Desires 


1 Kings 10: 13 And king Solomon gave unto the queen of Sheba all her desire, whatsoever she asked, beside that which Solomon gave her of his royal bounty. So she turned and went to her own country, she and her servants.


ful·fill

  1. 1.
    bring to completion or reality; achieve or realize (something desired, promised, or predicted). Satisfy! 

 The king fulfilled all of her desires. The bible says Psalm 37:4 Delight thyself also in the Lord: and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart. Meaning he knows the desires of your heart he is your love and he is not going to withhold his love from you he is going to give you what he knows your heart desires are!He will leave you satisfied!!! 

Thursday, January 2, 2014

                                    Mental Abuse! 



mental abuse

  1. Psychological abuse, also referred to as emotional abuse or mental abuse, is a form of abuse characterized by a person subjecting or exposing another to behavior that may result in psychological trauma, including anxiety, chronic depression, or post-traumatic stress disorder

John 8:32 

And you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.”















I just want to be free. I just want to know the truth. For years I sat there being told most of everything I did was wrong. No one ever told me that they made mistakes to they took it as if I was the only one wrong in the situation. A child born into chaos and so I acted out. I have suffered through physical, and mental abuse.  Never knowing since it hit so young that it wasnt my fault I was brought into the life I was. Growing up I suffered through eating disorders. It  was rare to told I was beautiful. I could ask how do I look and never get an answer so id say i look good but then be told why do I answer my own question. It was because I was waiting on an answer id never get. That I was beautiful! I am Beautiful. In the last year I spent locked in my room as God tried to restore my family. I was told hey way dont you ever come out but the second i did come out to talk or speak I was asked why are you out here or the t.v would be turned up Loud on me so I couldnt talk. Or id eat at work because if i ate the cheese its be a big deal but if id ask to eat the cheese why do you do that? Well because everything I do is an issue wither right or wrong. In the end id always be wrong or no one would be pleased.  Going out to dinner with friends was TOLD no you can't do that but I am 23. Followed by the bible says obey your mother and father. Im going to eat not smoke a blunt and get drunk. Yes i left college but i never relapsed or went back I started my ministry and worked and kept helping people but most importantly I got my healing.I have kept growing and I will never go back to who I use to be. I have been torn down by men told I was loved when in all reality they just wanted me for sex! Don't tell me you love me when you dont. Tell me the truth! Don't drive me crazy dont make me chase after a love ive been fighting for my whole life. Anyone can mentally abuse you. I was made to believe i am not hearing from God and that I was sick and needed people to depend on that I wasnt trying to change. Well that is a LIE! AND A REFUSE TO BELIEVE NOTHING BUT THE TRUTH! 





































BREAKING OUT OF Abuse and Trauma! 
















trau·ma
  1.  deeply distressing or disturbing experience.


John 4:7-9 There cometh a woman of Samaria to draw water: Jesus saith unto her, Give me to drink.
(For his disciples were gone away unto the city to buy meat.)
Then saith the woman of Samaria unto him, How is it that thou, being a Jew, askest drink of me, which am a woman of Samaria? for the Jews have no dealings with the Samaritans.


I have alot of trauma! I have flash backs that are horrible. I find myself flashing back and talking outloud to myself about the situation. Its like I get lost in my own mind. 4 years ago i was so hurt by my family and men that I was so bitter so broken and full of trauma. I remember when I meet this friend of mine. They called me beautiful everyday or gorgeous! Man it was like a foreign language that I yearned to hear. I dont have to call myself beautiful to feel good but you see what I am trying to hard to fight through something no one has ever made me feel I was. I AM BEAUTIFUL! I felt worth it for first time, i felt loved and i felt confused. Just like this woman at the well when she met Jesus. " How is it that thou, being a Jew, askest drink of me, which am a woman of Samaria? for the Jews have no dealings with the Samaritans.  You know this woman probably was confused because this is the first time someone had done something different outside of what she was use to. You know people like me who lived like I have its hard to get out of thinking you deserve better when others around you don't believe you deserve better than what you have. This woman came to a well when no one was around they didnt want anything to do with her. Yet Jesus did because he loved her! He was going to make sure the pattern of what everyone else thought of her break lose. So he met her at a well and talked to her despite everyone else! He was going to set her free with the Truth! She went to the well thristy and left without being thirsty anymore. Because she now had he truth! And when you have the truth you don't need anything else but the truth. 


John 4:28-29 The woman then left her waterpot, and went her way into the city, and saith to the men,
29 Come, see a man, which told me all things that ever I did: is not this the Christ?


I am Not Just Sex!!!

1 Corinthians 6:19-20
What? know ye not that your body is the temple of the Holy Ghost which is in you, which ye have of God, and ye are not your own?20 For ye are bought with a price: therefore glorify God in your body, and in your spirit, which are God's.

For years I believed. That I was only good enough to be loved in the bed. In college I would not invite men to my dorm only because I didnt want to do something I would regret later. YES I AM HUMAN! Coming out of prostitution and constantly giving my body away to men. Its sad when you have to promise God if he gives you a husband who loves you that you will give him your first child like hannah did because you think your incapable of being loved! So the Lord has been teaching me that I am worth more than to be loved in a bed room. Yes sex is good for marriage but I am more than that I deserve a to be a wife, and have a healthy relationship, and he believes I can be loved! See somewhere in me it was in bedded in me I was just sex!That is mental. no 13 year old girl just goes around sleeping around with tons of men for no reason believing she cant be loved. Who at 13 says sex is just sex on to the next. I thought I had no worth! No value!Men it was all a game because at the end of the day I IN MY MIND WOULD NEVER BE LOVED. WHO WALKS AROUND THINKING THEY ARE UNLOVABLE? The TRUTH THAT IS NOT MENTAL ABUSE SAYS THAT EVEN AFTER MY PROSTITUTION DAYS AND GIVING MY BODY AWAY THAT JESUS STILL LOVED ME AND DIED FOR MY SINS AND I AM NOT JUST SEX! I AM JASMINE I WAS BOUGHT WITH A PRICE AND SOMEONE LOVES ME!






What if? 

what if ——?

what would result if ——

2 Corinthians 5:17 
Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come.

You know the truth will always remain! It will never be not the truth if it doesnt remain. I never stayed who I was because that was never suppose to be who God created me to be the truth is this is me!! I am MORE THAN RUBIES! I am loved. See everything that was once told to me that I would never's faded because it was a lie! Yet Gods truth remained and so the old passed away and the new came. The truth came JASMINE! THIS IS JASMINE. A GIRL WHO IS CONFIDENT AND LOVES HERSELF AND OTHERS. No I am not prefect but I amwho God says I am. So what If you went from being something that people have in bedded into that you would never be to being something God said you will be! What if you went from thinking you will never be loved to being loved, never being a mother to being a mother, what if you went from never getting your degree to getting it, or never being stable to stable, or never getting healed but healed, what if you had the chance to become new what they thought you would never do? It is possible! You just have to stop believing what they once mentally told you you couldnt do and start believing what God said.Matthew 19:26
But Jesus beheld them, and said unto them, With men this is impossible; but with God all things are possible.