Learning to control your anger

I Ignored the trap of the Argument

2 Timothy 2:23-24

Have nothing to do with foolish, ignorant controversies; you know that they breed quarrels. And the Lord's servant must not be quarrelsome but kind to everyone, able to teach, patiently enduring evil,

trap a device or enclosure designed to catch and retain typically by allowing entry but not exit

Omgosh i remember it use to get me all the time...some people know how to make you mad and to suck you into the argument. But instead of falling for it i saw the trap of the argument and i choose a different road. Not today Dont feel like dealing with this. So I avoided the trap which stopped a whole argument. I picked my battle and honestly this is not one i wanted to have to deal with because it was foolish

Learning to control your Anger

Ephesians 4:26

26 Be ye angry, and sin not: let not the sun go down upon your wrath:

Aww man I had one argument and handled it good and the other one i started good and ended bad. On i went to bed and gathered my thoughts and talked out my feelings as an adult. The other one i handled okay but towards the end started bubbling over in frustrations... man working on communicating with people who we all have different views or cant see outside in only inside out or people wanting to have there own way and dont want to change or no matter the case... its hard but learning to allow anger but not to sin is hard... if i have to go back i will apologize for the sinful action but not for being upset for having the anger within myself.. i got one right but the other one almost...

Im Going to Die Today!

I'm going to die today!

John 19:30
When Jesus therefore had received the vinegar, he said, It is finished: and he bowed his head, and gave up the ghost.

Death comes! It doesnt always come in the best ways but it comes. We are all going to die some day. God has a time for everyone and this was Christ time to die. Christ didnt fight his death he gave up the Ghost he let death come. He knew that he would be in heaven with the father. I dont have a fear of Death i don't want to die a painful death like Christ but i know what a waits for me in heaven and if I was going to die today well im willing to die because I know what awaits me in heaven!

I'm Going to Heaven

Luke 23:39-43

39 One of the criminals who hung there hurled insults at him: “Aren’t you the Messiah? Save yourself and us!”40 But the other criminal rebuked him. “Don’t you fear God,” he said, “since you are under the same sentence? 41 We are punished justly, for we are getting what our deeds deserve. But this man has done nothing wrong.”42 Then he said, “Jesus, remember me when you come into your kingdom.[a]”43 Jesus answered him, “Truly I tell you, today you will be with me in paradise.”

re·as·sure

say or do something to remove the doubts and fears of someone.

I know without a shadow of a doubt in my mind that im going to heaven. Its like this thief on the cross. He knew for sure that he was going to heaven. Today you will be with me in paradise.  Its wonderful to have the confidence to know for sure something and not have to second guess. He knew with in his heart that he was going to heaven. This is because he believed in Christ and Christ forgave him of his sins. Yes he still had to die because he committed the sin but atleast he knew forsure that he was going to heaven. I know im going to die today but atleast im going to be with the lord in paradise free from this world.

My Pain is Over

Revelation 21:4 ‘He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death’[a]or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.”

I'm going to die and when i die my pain will be over. I will no longer suffer from the pains of this world. I will be in heaven. With joy i will be able to smile and laugh.Im excited! Because pain is no fun. Pain doesnt feel good. I just want to be happy! HAPPINESS IS ALL I WANT! TO KNOW ALL MY SADNESS WILL BE GONE AND MOURNING OVER HURTS GONE AND PAIN GONE. IM GOING TO DIE TODAY BUT ATLEAST I WONT HURT ANYMORE

No physical Abuse

These Hands Won't Hurt Colossians 3:19 Husbands, love your wives, and do not be harsh with them. harsh unpleasantly rough Physical Abuse is something serious! It can be dangerous! I wont just touch on men being harsh in a relationship because woman hit on their partners in this day and age. In no way shape or form is it okay to physically hurt your partner woman or man. Abuse is abuse is abuse. Keep your hands to your self !! Choose tender love and care!

Gods taking away your gift because you neglected it

Irresponsible  parents

ir·re·spon·si·ble

(of a person, attitude, or action) not showing a proper sense of responsibility

.Psalm 27:10
10 Though my father and mother forsake me,
    the Lord will receive me.

When you don't take care of the things God blesses you with. Then you are irresponsible. I they become damaged or broken due to your actions. Your irresponsible. I've had many people call me this over the years people who have neglected to do right by me. How dare they have the nerve to point a finger at me when they lacked within their own self I'll be darned if I was to be blaimed for all my pain growing up. I didn't break myself


I'm replaceable

re·place·ment

the action or process of replacing someone or something.

Matthew 10:30

30 And even the very hairs of your head are all numbered.

I always wanted to think of myself as one of a kind.  Because if die then there's no one like me. But lately I've realized its so easy for people to replace me. To walk away and not care. So when I die don't cry replace me with someone else who will be me but since I'm alive n everyone replaces me then I'll make it easy for everyone because I guess I have tons of replacements n tho God says there is no one else like me I guess people can find me on a self and replace with a better me or another kid or another girl friend or another someone...don't ever mourn me...just find someone else I'm replaceable

Gods taking away your gift because you neglected it

Do not neglect the gift that is in you, which was given to you by prophecy with the laying on of the hands of the eldership. I Timothy 4:1

One day I pray that God just take me away. Because I was a gift an I was neglected. People took advantage of their gift. You would never want to leave a child in a place of constant pain. Child services would take it away due to neglect. So I pray I pray God send me home to heaven take me away to be in a better place a place I know I'm loved. You neglected ur gift and so he is taken it away

Today I get a better  home

Luke 23:43 Jesus answered him, “Truly I tell you, today you will be with me in paradise.”

My dream is a happy home. I just want to be in heavenRevelation 21:4
4 ‘He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death’[a] or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.” I just want the pain to go away. I don't want another test I don't want another trial. I been through abuse rape abandonment jail living on the streets prostitution two relationships that ended after a promise of marriage. Having no parents mental trauma suicidal thoughts miscarriages. The list goes on and on how much more how much more do you want Me to suffer

I need protection

You were suppose to protect me

2 samuel 13:14-15

14 But Amnon wouldn’t listen to her, and since he was stronger than she was, he raped her. 15 Then suddenly Amnon’s love turned to hate, and he hated her even more than he had loved her. “Get out of here!” he snarled at her.

protect
to defend or guard from attack, invasion, loss, annoyance, insult, etc.; cover or shield from injury or danger.

Tamar was raped by her own brother so home probably never felt safe for her.its crazy when the ones close to us who are suppose to protect us are the ones CV who end up damaging us. Who do u trust if you cant even trust your own family to protect you. Or the people who claim they love you dont protect you. Instead they put they put you in danger. I need you to protect me instead you caused me pain. You left me damaged vulnerable and alone to pick up the pieces.

Free From Verbal Abuse!

 Breaking Free From Abuse 

Exodus 14:21-28Then Moses stretched out his hand over the sea; and the Lord caused the sea to go back by a strong east wind all that night, and made the sea into dry land, and the waters were divided. 22 So the children of Israel went into the midst of the sea on the dry ground, and the waters were a wall to them on their right hand and on their left. 23 And the Egyptians pursued and went after them into the midst of the sea, all Pharaoh’s horses, his chariots, and his horsemen.

24 Now it came to pass, in the morning watch, that the Lord looked down upon the army of the Egyptians through the pillar of fire and cloud, and He troubled the army of the Egyptians. 25 And He took off[a] their chariot wheels, so that they drove them with difficulty; and the Egyptians said, “Let us flee from the face of Israel, for the Lord fights for them against the Egyptians.”

26 Then the Lord said to Moses, “Stretch out your hand over the sea, that the waters may come back upon the Egyptians, on their chariots, and on their horsemen.” 27 And Moses stretched out his hand over the sea; and when the morning appeared, the sea returned to its full depth, while the Egyptians were fleeing into it. So the Lord overthrew the Egyptians in the midst of the sea. 28 Then the waters returned and covered the chariots, the horsemen, and all the army of Pharaoh that came into the sea after them. Not so much as one of them remained.

Abuse is hard to break out of. You often keep going back. And the abuser doesnt stop abusing some do if the open their eyes but many dont. Putting you down constantly. Not allowing you to exscape your past failures trying to keep control of you. Because of there own weakness of failures. Controling how u can speak to them. Making you feel that everythings your fault. That you must stay on their constant torture. And some say they want to see u happy yet they constantly abuse u. Using you for sex money their own pleasure. You want to enjoy life not live in abuse

Don't go Back to The Abuse !!

Abuse : treat a person with cruelty or violence, especially regularly or repeatedly.

Numbers 14:4 And they said one to another, Let us make a captain, and let us return into Egypt.

It takes courage to break out of abuse. Your in it so long you get comfortable in it. You allow the person to treat you in any kind of way and it becomes your normal. From the constant blaming, from the name calling, using you only in a sexual manner, from making it seem as no one else will love you. Making you feel worthless. From the lies and the cheating to constant mind games. To using everything against you to make you seem as you are this horrible person. Its going to be hard but take it oneday at a time your going to make it out. Keep pushing forward oneday at a time but don't go back.

Verbal Abuse 

Psalm 141:3

3 Set a guard, O Lord, over my mouth;

Keep watch over the door of my lips

Words are powerful they can become toxic. They can break people down. Proverbs 18:21 Death and life are in the power of the tongue,And those who love it will eat its fruit. Verbal abuse is a real thing from constant blaming, name calling,degrading someone. Its very hurtful and hurts someone inwardly. Sometimes we don't even see our actions and how this can hurt and effect someone life. Calling them stupid or retard or B****. Constantly making it seem like everything is their fault. Constantly telling them about everything they do wrong. Over and over and over again. Its a harmful cycle and it can be damaging. 





No More Verbal Abuse! 

Ephesians 4:29 

Let no corrupting talk come out of your mouths, but only such as is good for building up, as fits the occasion, that it may give grace to those who hear.




Verbal abuse doesn't have to carry on it can change. You must change your actions. Change the way you talk. Change the way you constantly blaime people. Change how you degrade them. You must fill those words with better words. Also take responsibility for your own actions.  Its okay not to say something hurtful because once it leaves your mouth you cannot take it back. Hold you tongue when you feel that something is going to come out that will hurt someone. Think before you speak. Ask yourself how would those words make you feel inside if they were to be spoken towards you. We are all accountable for our own actions. So speak life ! 

Withhold Love

                             WithHolding Love!! 

with·hold

1. 1.

   refuse to give (something that is due to or is desired by another).

Ephesians 5:25

 Husbands, love your wives, even as Christ also loved the church, and gave himself for it;

Would you consider withholding love as neglect? It is neglect. Love is to be given God gave his son Jesus because he loves the world. He never withheld his son from the world because he didn't want to neglect from his love. Jesus gave his life as a sacrifice to the world. When you have something like love you want to share it. Emotional, IIf with your spouse Sexual, Spirituality Love is something to be shared! So If you are withholding your love stop and share your love!!! 

                                            Quenched Love  

Song of Solomon 8:7

 Many waters cannot quench love, neither can the floods drown it: if a man would give all the substance of his house for love, it would utterly be contemned.

quench

 

1.

 satisfy(thirst, desires, passion, etc.)

When something is quenched it is put out. Like a candle with no flame. Constantly trying to hold your love from someone. To finally be able to love once you have not loved. Its like being thirsty and finally getting that drink of water. Your thirst will finally be quenched. To finally receive the love you have been waiting for becomes so fulfilling to you. BEcause you are no longer longing no longer yearning but you become satisfied!  

No Longer Thirsty!! 

John 4:6-14

6 Now Jacob's well was there. Jesus therefore, being wearied with his journey, sat thus on the well: and it was about the sixth hour.

7 There cometh a woman of Samaria to draw water: Jesus saith unto her, Give me to drink.

8 (For his disciples were gone away unto the city to buy meat.)

9 Then saith the woman of Samaria unto him, How is it that thou, being a Jew, askest drink of me, which am a woman of Samaria? for the Jews have no dealings with the Samaritans.

10 Jesus answered and said unto her, If thou knewest the gift of God, and who it is that saith to thee, Give me to drink; thou wouldest have asked of him, and he would have given thee living water.

11 The woman saith unto him, Sir, thou hast nothing to draw with, and the well is deep: from whence then hast thou that living water?

12 Art thou greater than our father Jacob, which gave us the well, and drank thereof himself, and his children, and his cattle?

13 Jesus answered and said unto her, Whosoever drinketh of this water shall thirst again:

14 But whosoever drinketh of the water that I shall give him shall never thirst; but the water that I shall give him shall be in him a well of water springing up into everlasting life.

On this day the woman at the well came to get some water she was known to be a thirsty woman. Yet on this day she went to the well and JEsus was going to cure her thirst. No longer would she be lacking the love that she needed because she would never thirst again. On the day she would be receiving the love she has always wanted! She was no longer thirsty, she was loved and satisfied!! 

                                                   Fulfilling Her Desires 

1 Kings 10: 13 And king Solomon gave unto the queen of Sheba all her desire, whatsoever she asked, beside that which Solomon gave her of his royal bounty. So she turned and went to her own country, she and her servants.

ful·fill

1. 1.

   bring to completion or reality; achieve or realize (something desired, promised, or predicted). Satisfy! 

 The king fulfilled all of her desires. The bible says Psalm 37:4 Delight thyself also in the Lord: and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart. Meaning he knows the desires of your heart he is your love and he is not going to withhold his love from you he is going to give you what he knows your heart desires are!He will leave you satisfied!!!