Friday, May 10, 2013

Are You a Trouble Maker? 




mis·chief  

  1. Playfulness that is intended to tease, mock, or create trouble.



Nehemiah 6:1-4



1 Now it came to pass when Sanballat, and Tobiah, and Geshem the Arabian, and the rest of our enemies, heard that I had builded the wall, and that there was no breach left therein; (though at that time I had not set up the doors upon the gates;)
That Sanballat and Geshem sent unto me, saying, Come, let us meet together in some one of the villages in the plain of Ono. But they thought to do me mischief.
And I sent messengers unto them, saying, I am doing a great work, so that I cannot come down: why should the work cease, whilst I leave it, and come down to you?
Yet they sent unto me four times after this sort; and I answered them after the same manner.



Nehemiah was doing a good work doing the task in which it was that God had pressed against his heart.  Yet their will always come a time where when ever your doing very good at what it is your doing that people don't like it so they decided to start problems. People would rather see you worst off then them. They hate when what God has for you starts to come together especially when they expected it to fail. You wonder why is it that people rarely like seeing other's doing good for themselves? Yet Nehemiah reply back to their trouble making was only I am doing a great work so why should I stop? If you really look at it it's like saying why should I come down to your level to play your games when things are going good for me. Really think about it if someone is causing issues in your life when things are going good for you why should you have to go down to their level and stop what your doing? It's not like what your doing is not coming together for a better cause! Nehemiah decided that he would keep doing his work! Yet the enemy decided he would keep coming after Nehemiah trying to start trouble. Think about Job! Job was a good man he had so much going for him when he was tested by the enemy. The enemy did everything to get Job to stop serving God. Yet Job even after losing everything was still going to serve God!

Job 1:21 And said, Naked came I out of my mother's womb, and naked shall I return thither: the Lord gave, and the Lord hath taken away; blessed be the name of the Lord.


He Say, She Say

ru·mor  

/ˈro͞omər/
Noun
A currently circulating story or report of uncertain or doubtful truth:

Nehemiah 6:5-8

Then sent Sanballat his servant unto me in like manner the fifth time with an open letter in his hand;
Wherein was written, It is reported among the heathen, and Gashmu saith it, that thou and the Jews think to rebel: for which cause thou buildest the wall, that thou mayest be their king, according to these words.
And thou hast also appointed prophets to preach of thee at Jerusalem, saying, There is a king in Judah: and now shall it be reported to the king according to these words. Come now therefore, and let us take counsel together.
8 Then I sent unto him, saying, There are no such things done as thou sayest, but thou feignest them out of thine own heart.

If people can't find nothing on you often they will make up something to find out about you. Why spread rumors about things that are not even true? Sanballat sent a report saying things in which were not true about Nehemiah and his work in which was being done. Yet Nehemiah reply was that his accusations were false about what it was that he was saying about him.  It's a great feeling to know within yourself your doing the right thing that when people make up stories about you because they are looking for some type of fault that you can just reply saying that what they have to say about you is false! To be confidant about it! Say what you please but what your saying has no truth in it! Alot of the time the things in which people say can try to get you from doing the task in which God wants you to accomplish. Job was getting tried by God but even Job wouldn't listen to God when he lost everything he was going to keep serving even when others think you should stop keep doing what God has called you to do. 

Job 2:9-10
Then said his wife unto him, Dost thou still retain thine integrity? curse God, and die.
10 But he said unto her, Thou speakest as one of the foolish women speaketh. What? shall we receive good at the hand of God, and shall we not receive evil? In all this did not Job sin with his lips.



You Made it Despite of What Everyone Else Said You Trusted God In Faith!

Nehemiah 6:15
 So the wall was finished in the twenty and fifth day of the month Elul, in fifty and two days.



Nehemiah finished the task it was that God said and in record time because God was with him! We think about Job, He lost everything but in the end God gave him everything back even better than before! So what Gods task may seem strange to everyone else no matter what trust. Gods test for Job was for him to be faithful and keep serving God! Noah's test of faith was to build and ark! The three Hebrew boys was to not bow down to King Nebuchadnezzar!
  Nehemiah to build a wall! Whatever your task is in the end it will be worth it. God does not lay things on our hearts to do for a waste. Ive watched as God has started to restore my family after he told me to "build an Ark " which was leave college in my junior year a crazy step of faith but my family is being restored more and more each day and I love it! I wouldn't have it any other way! Despite of what anyone said I seen it all come together right before my eyes just the way God said! Noah's family got saved from a flood,  The hebrew boys didn't get burned in the fire, Nehemiah finished his wall!Job saw a better latter day after everything he went through God restored everything back! That's why it is key to walk by faith and not by sight! It is best to believe God despite of what things look like or others may say!


Job 42:12-13 

12 So the Lord blessed the latter end of Job more than his beginning: for he had fourteen thousand sheep, and six thousand camels, and a thousand yoke of oxen, and a thousand she asses.
13 He had also seven sons and three daughters.






I take Back What I said!


Nehemiah 6:16
 And it came to pass, that when all our enemies heard thereof, and all the heathen that were about us saw these things, they were much cast down in their own eyes: for they perceived that this work was wrought of our God.


In the end no one will really have much to say when they see that God was behind what was to be accomplished! The enemies were cast down in their own eyes because they thought that Nehemiah was the one who was behind the work being done but it was God. When God sets out for a task to be finished it will be finished. The floods came in Noah's day and once they came No one had much to say because they were all drowning because it flooded. Jesus is coming back one day and you may laugh mock and make jokes now but one day we will all have to stand before God on judgement day! On that day everyone's lips will be moving confessing Jesus Christ is Lord!



Philippians 2:10-11


10 That at the name of Jesus every knee should bow, of things in heaven, and things in earth, and things under the earth;
11 And that every tongue should confess that Jesus Christ is Lord, to the glory of God the Father. 


Wednesday, March 27, 2013

                                                        Don't Get Stuck!



Abuse is one of those issues that is learned and passed on. I was a victim but became the abuser. Manipulation comes with this the abuser will make the other person feel worthless then who they are because they themselves have low self esteem. So they keep going down this horrible cycle to whoever will feed into their lack of. I know Ive been the abuser It was learned! I never wanted to be the abuser. I  never understood it was abuse because to me that was love to me. Abuse, misuse, sexual anything. That was my definition of love. Until I woke up after abusing someone for a year! Yikes what did I do. Yet I vowed never to abuse anyone again until the day God told me who it was I could marry. I was so afraid to ever hurt anyone like I had before and then it happened I was getting kicked out and that triggered something in me that brought me back to a time in my life were everyone use to kick me out and it happened! Fight or flight.! I regret that day so bad. Never realized how broken I was until the other day. I've been stuck. I didn't think I was abusive anymore yet I have been not intentionally but because ive been broken. Not understanding on how to fix this issue. All I had to do is learn to really love myself. Not being able to see that I had low self steem. Abuse is belitting of someone else because within you something is wrong. I never really liked myself because I never thought anyone liked me. Until I learned that people like me, that im beautiful, that I can be loved, and that I only have to be myself. That's great news because I dont have to be stuck anymore! Because I believe! That I am better and bigger than Abuse! Since i found this new love for myself Its bringing a new found love for others. I thought I had to trick people into liking me because I didn't understand why people liked me!  Yet now I know! IM A GREAT PERSON THE DAMAGE JUST CAME TO YOUNG FOR ME TO EVER GET A CHANCE TO UNDERSTAND THAT! BUT IM FREE NOW! FREE TO LIVE!

The children of Israel got stuck in the wilderness for 40( Number 13) years because they couldnt see themselves past a certain place in their life. They were in bondage. If you decide you want to stay stuck in certain places in your life you will never grow. You will keep wondering, going to abuse the next person, or go to the next abusive relationship to the next. Unless you think of yourself better than you have been! The children of Israels promise was the promise land not the wilderness don't choose to just look into the promise land but live there!Be free but first you have to believe. Disbelief will get  you stuck and you will never move forward! I had to believe that I was capable of being loved , capable of being liked for me, capable of people staying, capable of overcoming this place in my life. I am no longer stuck in the wilderness but I have overcame abuse and being Abusive! No more being stuck, no more going into abusive relationships, no more no more being afraid to love, or be in a relationship. I have OVERCOME! ASK YOURSELF WHY ARE YOU STUCK IN YOUR CYCLE OF ABUSE? WHAT IS KEEPING YOU THERE? HOW CAN GOD HELP YOU OVERCOME? IT'S TIME TO LIVE ON THE OTHERSIDE OF THE JORDAN INSTEAD OF GOING IN CIRCLES IN THE WILDERNESS!






 PREPARING TO CROSS!

cross·ing  

/ˈkrôsiNG/

Noun
  1. The action of moving across or over somethin
Joshua and Caleb were able to cross over the Jordan because they believed they could overcome the wilderness in their life! They believed they no longer had to stay stuck in the same place yet they could move. I bet as everyone died off in the wilderness they were taking all their scars and wound from their past and overcoming and healing! They probably kept repeating to themselves "We are well able to overcome this". They refused to stay stuck in Egypt ( Bondage) and Refused to stay Stuck in the Wilderness(A place of nothingness just a place of repeating a cycle). They wanted to cross the Jordan They wanted to OVERCOME. God told Joshua as he was going to cross the Jordan 


Joshua 1:9 Have not I commanded thee? Be strong and of a good courage; be not afraid, neither be thou dismayed: for the Lordthy God is with thee whithersoever thou goest.

 It can be hard to cross over into a new life after you have been stuck in the same place for so long! They left out of Egypt, Wondered in the wilderness, and NOW THEY WERE FINALLY FREE! FREE TO HAVE GODS PROMISES! It feels good when you can say you have overcome! That you are no longer stuck in the same harmful cycle! Joshua told the People to prepare themselves provision for they would cross in three days to possess then land!


Joshua 1:11
 Pass through the host, and command the people, saying, Prepare you victuals; for within three days ye shall pass over this Jordan, to go in to possess the land, which the Lord your God giveth you to possess it.



This is big because being stuck in a cycle hinders you from moving forward! I remember when I first got off drugs! I was in a repeated harmful abusive  cycle yet when I got off the cycle I got up off my butt got on my feet and crossed over and went to college! I could do it! I crossed my Jordan!



So get Ready to Pack your Bags to the Next Place God is Moving you to!


Confidence to Win This Fight
                                              

wres·tle  

Verb
Take part in a fight







Genesis 32:24-29
24 And Jacob was left alone; and there wrestled a man with him until the breaking of the day.
25 And when he saw that he prevailed not against him, he touched the hollow of his thigh; and the hollow of Jacob's thigh was out of joint, as he wrestled with him.
26 And he said, Let me go, for the day breaketh. And he said, I will not let thee go, except thou bless me.
27 And he said unto him, What is thy name? And he said, Jacob.
28 And he said, Thy name shall be called no more Jacob, but Israel: for as a prince hast thou power with God and with men, and hast prevailed.
29 And Jacob asked him, and said, Tell me, I pray thee, thy name. And he said, Wherefore is it that thou dost ask after my name? And he blessed him there. 
Now this is not your physical fighting because this is life after abuse or being the abuser. Yet this is Fighting a battle that needs to be overcame! A battle that needs to be won! You cannot win if you are not confident! That you can do this! That you can overcome this! That you have victory. Jacob wrestled with God and man! He needed to overcome and he wasnt going to let go until he won his battle. He got hurt in the process. Yet scars only show that you have overcame! Go bold! Don't let go keep fighting until you can say in confidence : 


I AM NO LONGER ABUSIVE, I AM NOT LONGER STUCK, I AM LOVED, I AM LIKED, I DONT HAVE TO MANIPULATE, I CAN LIVE WITHOUT FEAR THAT CAN'T DO THIS IN A HEALTHY WAY BUT CAN DO IT! I CAN WIN THIS BATTLE! I HAVE WON THIS BATTLE! GOD WONT LET GO UNTIL YOU BLESS ME! UNTIL IM SET FREE! UNTIL VICTORY IS MINE, UNTIL I PREVAIL! 

 
Prevailed!
                
    Prevail

Verb
  1. Prove more powerful than opposing forces
                                  

Fear is what caused them not to cross in the first place. Yet when you overcome something it's like you have gotten in the ring one on one with your fear and knocked it  out! Thats why God told Joshua to be strong and couragous because God was with him! God was helping him win the battle's to come! Moving forward still comes with battles there may be Giants,Jericho's, Ai in the land but whose on your side. God is!Yes moving forward has its challenges but with God all things are possible!(Matthew 19:26) He wouldn't allow you to move forward if he wasn't standing in your corner helping you win the battle! He's standing right there cheering you on! Do you have Faith enough to Prevail!


OverComer

Tuesday, February 26, 2013